Your Will Be Done...

So, it’s now March and I still don’t have my monthly visitor. I tried the PG test yesterday but it’s negative. I’ve been experiencing light cramps since the week of my ovulation. Sometimes I feel slightly nauseated but that can be just a PMS. Today is my CD30. My doctor told me to wait until CD35 to test again and call her for an appointment if the visitor has not arrived till then. I’m hoping and praying that I am pregnant. Right now, I’m praying more about it than for the house that we are buying to go through. If I do get pregnant, I have to check with my doctor if I can do a long flight since I’m supposed to travel on April. The flight is 24 hours each way so I don’t want to be stressed and have a miscarriage. It may be better off if I postpone my flight so I can take care of myself. I would feel really bad though If I don’t go, but I also want to take care of myself and the baby.

Sometimes I feel like I am really pregnant. But sometimes I’m thinking, maybe I’m just fooling myself. I guess it’s hard with my situation because I really really want to be pregnant. I want to have a family but of course… It’s God’s will be done.