Positive?

When I went to Philippines for a vacation last April, I stopped taking my BBT (Basal Body Temperature). This is a tool women use to check the body temperature to figure out if we are ovulating or not. I’m not sure if you know, but my husband and I have been trying since October 2004. Anyway, It was hard to take the BBT in Philippines because of jetlag, etc. When I got back here in New York, I still did not take my BBT. Joe and I decided to stop monitoring ourselves and take it easy in baby making. At that point, we were both stressing out and worried about our soon to be home. So that was May 2005. We finally signed the contract and were able to move to OUR HOME on July 4th weekend. I knew that we will be stressed about fixing the house, buying, painting, etc. So I still did not bother taking my BBT. Then 4 weeks ago, I had the urge to take my BBT again. On the 2nd day, my temperature went up. I was thinking to myself that in 2 weeks, I will get my monthly visitor. So I still went on and took my BBT. 2 weeks later (August 14, 2005), my visitor hasn’t arrived, I’ve been having cramps for 2 weeks and my temperature is still up. So I decided to take a HPT just for the sake of it… and not really expecting anything. On the stick, there were 2 visible lines. The other one was lighter than the other. I thought both lines should be dark so I figured it was negative. So I moved on with my life thinking I’m not pregnant. August 16, 2005, Tuesday came and I started feeling tired. The next day, I started reading message boards for women who are trying to get pregnant. One of the soon to be mothers said that she saw 2 lines and the other one was faint, but it’s still positive. And people were saying that 2 lines is 2 lines… it’s positive. So, I started thinking to myself…. Wait a minute… I had 2 LINES!!! Holy s_iT!!!! When I got home, I still felt tired and went to sleep at 8pm. I woke up the next morning and tried another HPT to make sure, and went online to check the instructions on the proper use and how to read the results (coz I threw the paper that came with it). I followed the instructions, and lo and behold… 2 lines appeared! I even took pictures of it!!!! When Joe woke up… or let me say, when I woke him up, I told him…and he was just somewhat surprised coz he said I was already acting weird. He said that he’s happy but doesn’t want to get carried away yet until the doctor says it’s true. So I called the doctor to make an appointment. Unfortunately, I have to wait a week. So here I am… still feeling nauseous, appetite is all whacked, feeling tired and want to take a nap.. here at work.

We decided that we won’t tell anybody until the doctor verifies that we’re pregnant. Once she verifies it, we will tell our families only. After my first trimester, then we’ll tell our friends and co-workers. Actually, my staff has been wondering because I’ve been acting strange to them. Yesterday I took a half day off because I wasn’t feeling well. Today, I had chicken wings for breakfast, and wanted pizza…(and I’m not a pizza person). I didn’t say anything when one of my staff asked if I’m pregnant. All I said was that “I’m just hungry”.

My husband and I are really hoping that we are pregnant. All the symptoms and the sticks say I am… but we’ll never know until it’s confirmed by the doctor.